So like all my real life friends follow me on twitter and this is my only sanctuary lol

The internet was trash today

So trash that I’m on Tumbrl.

Y'all

I’ve been out in the friend zone. It’s been a minute. I’m about to pull out all the hoe tricks.

I will not go out like this.

This is me recognizing that in order to move forward with something real, I have to be vulnerable. This is me realizing that it might not end well. Hell, it might not even start at all. But this is me letting go and letting someone else be in control of portion of my happiness. All that “protect your energy” stuff is great until I reached a point where I didn’t know how to let someone else in. It’s all fun and games until I realized how lonely I was and all this time I’ve been protecting myself and building walls that are nearly unbreakable. Everyone around me is getting into relationships, falling in love, getting hurt, breaking up, finding soul mates and everything in between. And I’m on the outside looking in thinking I’m protecting myself but really I’m making it a whole lot worse. I thought I was strong for being independent but in reality I’m just running away from every feeling I’ve ever had that could leave me with a broken heart. Because as much as I hate the admit it. Love is as important to me and everyone else.

So this is me saying I’ve been wrong all this time and I need to work on it.

This is me admitting I want to be loved but more importantly I want to love someone else ❤️